It’s true you know; that old saying that kids grow up so fast. While we are in he trenches some days just seem to go on and on and on, and you can’t wait until bedtime so you can get your adult time (even if that just involves a pee by yourself).
The last couple of weeks has really shown me just how quickly children do grow. My eldest is in Kindergarten. I knew that by being 5 he was in the last year of babyhood, but now watching him run happily into in the school, not paying any attention to the fact that his mom stands there looking longingly at the little boy who is quickly morphing into a bigger boy.
And yes, the fart and pooping jokes are becoming more frequent, but it’s not just that. It’s this responsibility and this willingness to help and to take care of his brothers. It’s when he notices that something is unjust and I have to try and explain why.
It’s the level of understanding that he has, but with the sensitivity of the younger boy still in there.
I really feel like he is growing too fast. That these years just whipped by. All those days spent indoors watching treehouse because I was tired or sick or pregnant or just bored. Wasted.
As I look at this littlest one who can even roll over I think of just how much a person grows in 5 years, it’s phenomenal really.
And I start asking myself if I did all I could do, and if I have no regrets and if I did everything that I wanted too…and I know I didn’t, and I do have regrets, but there is nothing I can do except try harder now. Get more involved now.
Ignore the stuff that doesn’t matter. It only takes a second to go and look at a picture or a craft or a playroom. Get down to his level and play. I say this over and over.
Honestly I think it’s because I don’t like “boy” play. It’s way too rough. Dragons, dino’s, cars and transformers….what about house, and store and family?
I have started to put reminder notes around the house to calm down, to breathe and to take time for my kids, and time for myself…which will give more time to my kids.
In 5 more years my eldest will be 10 and in grade 5.
I want him and I to look back and say, wow. That was a great childhood.